my polaroided dream: Archive

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in a collaboration with Sepia E&P Models
Grooming: Jan Salvador Diamola
HMUA: RJ Delmar
PHOTOGRAPHER: Laurie Antonio and Mark Opada
WARDROBE: ZARA & Twins Close

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Nov 8, 2012

some good stuff

★ gym

★ done in just a week

★ retail therapy

★ cupcakes

★ highschool classmates. thanks for dropping by

★ relocation

★ something organic for my hair

★shake shack

★ beach

★ a little more of retail theraphy

★ ihop

★ fruits

★ for tambul and mom’s bday

★ peace offering from Romailla

Sep 8, 2012

party like a rockstar

just for VIP!

★ a drink or two in the house before hitting the bar

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★ my catfish look

★ thank you Mr. Stranger for your interest in volunteering to take us some photo

★ just for VIP

★ drink all you want

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★ coz baby you’re a firework…

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★ it’s aed babe :)

Sep 8, 2012

alcohol overload

Chan in the house!

★ 1st set: jager and redhorse

★ zara babe

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★ off to Long’s Bar

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★ 2nd set: beer,mojitos,and bullfrog

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★ 3rd set: long island iced tea,sex on the beach,tequila shot,and frozen margarita.

★ drunk?lol

★off to hit the sack. :)

we’ll prolly do it again next year. EID MUBARAK Dubai!

Sep 8, 2012

Jun 27, 2012

i won't stoop down to your level

hate me all you want……. spread lies……. continue convincing yourself that you haven’t done anything wrong……. continue planting lies on other people’s head because you want their sympathy……. continue doing that malicious evil deeds of yours….. continue being the pathetic person that you strive to be….

i wouldn’t care anymore….
and no i won’t stoop down to your level…….
i would stand up, dust the dirt away, lift my head up and go the other direction….

i’ll continue to shrug my shoulders and walk away from all the lies you spread and all the harsh words you uttered…… i’ll continue to ignore you as if you’re just a speck of annoying dust……. i’ll continue doing things that i know you can’t and will not be able to do……i’ll continue going to places that you can never see nor reach (or atleast make sure i’ll get there first)…….. i’ll continue to love which i know you are never capable of because of all the hatred in your heart…..

today, i’m turning my back away from all that is selfish, unjust and loathful which you so represents…… because from now on i’ll always walk in love…..

and i am forgiving you…..

for hurting me…
for spreading lies about me….
for destroying my dreams….

no i won’t take revenge……
there’s higher power who can do that for me…..and when that higher power finally decided to give you that “whip” of bad karma you’ll remember me…… oh yes, you’ll remember me….

Jun 24, 2012

Falling in love is something that is not planned but it is apart of life. Some try to avoid it by expressing their fear of commitment and others rarely admit that their in love. But us we take the risk of falling in love! In loving we are not rejected, judged and feel vulnerable for admitting something so common. Do not misunderstand us…falling in love is a beautiful thing. It happens when you least expected. You’re on cloud nine for as long as you want the ride to keep going. It’s just we must always be careful and truly understand our feeling as we get on the ride to cloud nine.Our love story started with a simple telephone call, a simple notification that she passed the NCLEX exam, It started with a simple hello and a little bit of arguments. Then one day we end up meeting each other somewhere down north in cebu. We talked about our past love story and life in general. Since then our communication didn’t stop there. We meet again for the second time..third time and so on and in that moment we found out that we are both attracted to each other. We’re like angels that once lost their wings and found again. It’s like magnet. Inseparable! …we can’t explain the feeling but it’s how it shows. We’re both hoping this relationship will last long, come what may!

Jun 18, 20121 note

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy. Even if their happiness means that you’re not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a try. You’ll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else; one who can love us even more( thanks ebe for loving me) than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get beckon the horse. But don’t ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection; to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks for you know, that they were the things that have helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way; whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then that you’ll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire, and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk, if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love. Because every time we do, we get hurt. Then I figured… That’s why it’s called
heart FALLING IN LOVE!

Jun 18, 20121 note

Sometimes you need to step outside, clear your head and remind yourself of who you are. And where you wanna be. And sometimes you have to venture outside your world in order to find yourself. As for me, I’m happy right where I am. I only wanna be with you

Jun 18, 20121 note

This is for the broken hearted

I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see’s. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this…

May 21, 20121 note

it's called life...

Every waking day maybe an ordinary day for you but for her it’s a miracle.life is indeed a blessing.I’m not really afraid of death but I’m afraid of losing someone who’s dearly close to my heart.we used to joke about you dying and I often asked if you’re ready and your answer was always consistent ” mamatay man jud tang tanan,mauna lang ko” but I just realized now that it was me who’s not ready of losing you…27 years with you is not enough and I still want to spend more years with you but if you are hurting and tired, I’ll understand but I need you to know Bebie that I love you so much.

Your beautiful eyes look tired but they’re showing me hope.you look pale and your skin is dry but you have a very colorful heart that keeps you going. the needles and pain you’re feeling right now won’t give you rest but i know you’re brave enough to face everything.I may not be there with you personally but im with you in this battle.remember those days when i had some school projects and i was too lazy to do it.You always volunteered to do it just for me to get an A.when i had my first heartache you were the one who comforted me.when i got pregnant you were the first one i told about it than manang coz i know you’ll help me make decisions.You’re more than my sister.You’re my life’s mentor. So be strong coz i still have a lot of things to share with you and i have plans for us.

Mar 15, 2012

sand

went to the beach with my habibtis to take a deep but the water was too cold..we went sunbathing instead.no cameras allowed but we just don’t care.

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Mar 9, 2012

rockin to the beat

Some like Sunday, some like Monday, but i like your birthday.Happy birthday my ate Maricel and Roger ♥

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Mar 4, 2012

zombified

My very first night out here in Dubai. Went to Longs Bar- a 10 minute walk away from my flat.Had so much fun with my girls :)

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Mar 1, 2012

what my messy table looks like…

Feb 9, 2012

another new journey

I left the Philippines full of hopes and an empty pocket. It was hard but, leaving a 2-year old daughter was more difficult.When i first arrived here in Dubai, i felt alone and started to miss my family and the ones that i loved at home. I miss my crazy friends and our weekend foodtrip.I miss my comfort zone.I cry once in a while especially if im not busy and i just keep on wishing that i can go home anytime i want.As the days pass by im starting to get used to this new environment and im excited… the rest is still unwritten.Here are some flicks of my new journey here in Dubai….Goodluck to my dreams!